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Year: 2024

I Never Thought

Life is full of “I never thought” moments. When I think back on my 18-year-old, idealistic and hopeful self, there are so many things from then ‘til now I never thought would happen.

I never thought I’d find myself in a position of starting over with my 18-month-old son after a divorce.  I never thought my dad would die in 2019, then 8 months later we would be locking the doors of our assisted living facility, telling people they couldn’t see their loved ones. I never thought my father-in-law would die of covid 9 months later. I also never thought I’d feel responsible for other people’s lives or feel blamed for people dying.  I never thought I’d feel demonized by the news media because we own a senior healthcare facility during covid. I never thought I would experience such loneliness.

I never thought

I never dreamed

I never hoped

I never planned

I bet as you read this, you can think of your own “I never thought” moments.

God never had any “I never thought” moments. In fact, He said in Jeremiah 29:11…

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. (NKJV)  Another version of Jeremiah 29:11 says for I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (NIV)

Wow. My 18-year-old self looks at this scripture with hopeful anticipation of peace and prosperity ahead. My 53-year-old self sees what God says 3 verses later… “and I will bring you back from captivity.”

He would never say he was going to bring us back from captivity if we were never going to be in captivity (captured against our will or held in confinement) Imprisoned, jailed, arrested, trapped like there’s no way out

Jesus tells us that in this world we will have trouble, but He goes on to say…     “But take heart, I have overcome the world.”

This scripture is such a great reminder as I think about what exactly Jesus overcame. He overcame the loneliness of Gethsemane as he continued to remind Peter, James, and John to remain awake and stand guard as He was praying in agony over what was ahead.

  • The people who he counted on the most were sleeping
  • The people who knew Him better than anyone else were sleeping
  • The people who said they loved him and would do anything for Him were sleeping.
  • He was about to go through what no one went through before or since and they were sleeping.

I don’t know about you, but the loneliness Jesus must have felt in the garden may have been worse than everything that happened next.

He was betrayed Judas, denied by Peter, rejected, bruised, beaten, laughed at, and humiliated. He carried the weight of the cross, nails pierced His hands and He wore a crown of thorns.

Before Jesus breathed His last breath, I’m reminded of a few words He said just before His death. These words are found in only one of 4 gospels, yet they may be the most important words He ever spoke. “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.”

Forgive everyone who had anything to do with me ending up on a cross. Forgive Peter, forgive Judas, forgive everyone who whipped me. Forgive those who “slept” while I suffered alone. Forgive them all.

Everything was accomplished with those words… “Father, forgive them.”

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. 16:33a  But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33  

 

Forgive

Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.” Luke 23:34a

“Beauty in the Broken” Scripture References

Jeremiah 29:11 says

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. (NKJV)

Psalm 139:1-10

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.

Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.

Another version of Jeremiah 29:11 says for I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (NIV)

12-14 of Jeremiah 29:11

“Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.”

When (Not if) you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When  (Not if) you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you. Isaiah 43:2

 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. John 16:33a 

 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1

 And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord, have not forsaken (abandoned, deserted, left stranded) those who seek You. Psalm 9:10

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. 16:33a  But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33  

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. 1 John 4:4

 Matthew 26:36-46

Then Jesus came with them to a place called Gethsemane, and said to the disciples, “Sit here while I go and pray over there.” And He took with Him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and He began to be sorrowful and deeply distressed. Then He said to them, “My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death. Stay here and watch with Me.”

He went a little farther and fell on His face, and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.

Then He came to the disciples and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, “What! Could you not watch with Me one hour? Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

Again, a second time, He went away and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done.” And He came and found them asleep again, for their eyes were heavy.

So He left them, went away again, and prayed the third time, saying the same words. Then He came to His disciples and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Behold, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going. See, My betrayer is at hand.”

Then an angel from heaven appeared to him and gave him strength. So he prayed very hard in anguish. His sweat became like drops of blood falling to the ground. Luke 22:43

 

 

 

 

Bring You Back

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity;

Jeremiah 29:11-14

Preeminence.

He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And He (Jesus) is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him,  and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

 Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation— if you continue in your faith, established and firm, and do not move from the hope held out in the gospel. This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven, and of which I, Paul, have become a servant. Colossians 1:17-23 NIV

 

He existed before anything else, and he holds all creation together.  Christ is also the head of the church, which is his body. He is the beginning, supreme over all who rise from the dead. So he (Jesus) is first in everything.  For God in all his fullness was pleased to live in Christ, and through him God reconciled everything to himself. He made peace with everything in heaven and on earth by means of Christ’s blood on the cross.

This includes you who were once far away from God. You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions. Yet now he has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in his physical body. As a result, he has brought you into his own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before him without a single fault.

But you must continue to believe this truth and stand firmly in it. Don’t drift away from the assurance you received when you heard the Good News. The Good News has been preached all over the world, and I, Paul, have been appointed as God’s servant to proclaim it. Colossians 1:17-23 NLT

 

And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist.  And He is the head of the body, the church, who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the preeminence.

Reconciled in Christ

For it pleased the Father that in Him all the fullness should dwell, and by Him to reconcile all things to Himself, by Him, whether things on earth or things in heaven, having made peace through the blood of His cross.

And you, who once were alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now He has reconciled in the body of His flesh through death, to present you holy, and blameless, and above reproach in His sight—if indeed you continue in the faith, grounded and steadfast, and are not moved away from the hope of the gospel which you heard, which was preached to every creature under heaven, of which I, Paul, became a minister. Colossians 1:17-23 NKJV

Redemption through His Blood

For this reason we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding; that you may walk worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing Him, being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all might, according to His glorious power, for all patience and longsuffering with joy;  giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light. He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins.

Colossians 1:9-14

Better than Life

Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
Psalm 63:3-4

Don’t Fear

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
Strengthen
Help
Uphold

Don’t Let Your Heart be Troubled

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.
In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. And where I go you know, and the way you know.”
Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going, and how can we know the way?” Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”
John 14:1-6

Pursue Peace

Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
Who is the man who desires life,
And loves many days, that he may see good?
 Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
Depart from evil and do good;
Seek peace and pursue it.

The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
And His ears are open to their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit. (crushed in spirit- NIV) 

Psalms 34: 11-18 NKJV

Trust Him

Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!

Psalms 34:8

Who am I Pleasing?

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. Galatians 1:10

This week I was reminded of a children’s Christmas program I directed 14 years ago. Every time I think about it, I laugh, even all these years later. My daughter and niece (both 4) were part of the program. When the kids got on stage and we began the first song, I noticed my niece wasn’t paying a bit of attention or engaging in the program at all. In fact, she may have been walking around stage a little while the others were singing.

I couldn’t hear any of the kids singing very loud, so I put my hands up to my ears hoping they would all sing a little louder. My daughter really took this to heart. Her face turned beet red, and she began yelling at the top of her lungs. Just as my daughter began yelling at the top of her lungs, my niece decided it was time to bob back and forth. It was quite the scene.

My daughter really wanted to please me. Her eyes were intently watching me. I told her not to take her eyes off me and she didn’t. She didn’t care about anyone else or what they thought and quite frankly she was too young to care. She saw that I wanted louder, so she was determined to be the loudest. She did a perfect job. Why? Because she had her eyes fixed on me and she did what I asked. She did it with such intensity and her whole heart. She wouldn’t have known what I wanted her to do if her eyes weren’t on me the entire time.

Just as my daughter wanted so desperately to please me, I think God wants us to spend our time pleasing Him. He wants us to do what He asks to the best of His ability- with intensity and our whole heart. As Maria’s eyes were fixed on me, God wants our eyes on Him. Jeremiah 29:13 says “You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your hearts.”

We will fully be able to know and do the will of our father when we keep our eyes completely on Him!

Dear Heavenly Father- Help me to live my life pleasing you. Help me to live my life with my eyes fixed on you. Help me to be intent on serving you in order to do your “good, pleasing and perfect will.”

Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. Galatians 1:10

 

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